Some people dream.
Some people don’t dream.
Or maybe it was just the need to get out the Monster brewing inside of me.
I didn’t know.
But nothing I did ever worked out.
I was raised by narcissistic parents who used me as a source of supply all the time.
Thus, victims often become abusers.
But I refused to be like them.
I loathed them.
And sports helped me manage the pain.
Sports helped me cope.
But that’s when I fell in love with fitness.
I felt the flow.
But the problem was, running like this all the time, is really hard on the body, and eventually, my body gave up on me.
But I didn’t know that at the time.
I needed a place to go to learn how to do life because I had no idea how to do life…
And I know this might sound crazy to people who are naturally happy, but for me, this was advanced information that brand new to me.
The idea that you could choose to be happy was so foreign because I was trained to be unhappy.
Always so sad.
But I didn’t want to feel like this.
I could never catch a break.
And I was determined to beat this disease and go back to the healing center dream that was buring inside of me.
So that’s what I did…
And on top of all that I was attacked by another narcissistic villain.
Instead of dreaming, I started to prepare for leaving.
I studied death…obsessively.
And everything I learned told me life after death is much better than living a life like this.
We just accept that this is how life is.
But eventually, giving up felt like my only option.
And I was ready…
Alcohol inks taught me so much about life, love, and the art of being human.
They taught me how to move energy.
And every time I painted, I could feel something magical happening inside me.
I was changing.
They gave me the desire to try again.
A new dream.
And in 2022 I become The World’s Greatest Alcohol Ink Artist (self-proclaimed).
I started to write differently.
Colours are love.
And once you know, you can’t un-know.
You have to do the work…
And now I know that what we all want is to feel loved…
This is a key step in the healing quest, for it is our environment that influences our health and mindset.
And thus, you are doing the work just by being Home…